broken

hi..it's been a while, i know..but i've been busy. there were toefl, workshops and courses, application to graduate school, interview, and the latest, a part-time job and research on a book i'm working at. i had fun being so busy. this year i'll be juggling with work (both full-time and part-time), trip to overseas, research, and study. to be honest, i don't know why i keep on searching for some other things to do when there are so many things in my calendar this year. maybe i need to get my mind off the frustration i feel inside.

who am i?why am i trying to please people who never accept me for who i am?why i never ask myself what i want?why i never be selfish?

i don't even regconize who they are now and what more they want from me, but i keep on giving and not getting any love and understanding.